Am currently using Rylan BB to blog this since I've been rushing so much I barely got time for my laptop already. Lols!
Ps.. Am on my way to meet S for alvin n the chipmunks((:

k so its the last day of 2009. This year, I won't say was totally shitty but nt totally awesome either. I was so happy in love 12mths ago, to me moving back frm perth having to leave my babies behind, entering uni which has a totally diff environment n people, frm my break up, to all the partying n meeting all sorts of diff people n dating so much.. Well its been a rollacoaster ride

But despite everything.. I'm so glad I got to noe a few precious babygirls tt has stuck by through me all my hard times n seen me cry, drunk, crazy, happy n all tt shit. Particularly kerry baby, ethel twin n yvonne. These 3 special ones I met this year

Kerry baby.. Thxs so much for always being there for me. Esp when I'm drunk n took care of me twice!! Hw we met was funni!! Nv will I ever forget tt I actually got knocked out n slept at attica's bar when I 1st met u!! Wat a 1st impression I gave u! Haha! Zirca nites wif u are always so much fun! No one can ever replace u my zirca babygirl!! (: all the vip treatments we get frm the bouncers n bartenders.. My gosh idk wat zirca would be without u baby!! Thxs for taking care of me esp when I'm drunk n crying my eyes out. Uve been the bestest baby!! I realli won't noe wat to do if u weren't at zirca wif me tt nite! N baby noe tt I'm always here for u no matter wad alrighty. U can count on me. N I'm forever u n tati's lovechild!! LOLs! I fking love u to bits baby!!! We hav more yrs to come yesss! :D

Ethel twin.. Gosh 2 words.. SKIP SKOOL!! Haha! I hav no idea wat skool would be like without u. I think I would start killing people in our class if it weren't for u!! Thxs for listening to me rant n whine all the time. Though we met in june onli.. We became so close n I'm sooo scared when we move on to psych/tourist n I can see u!! Sighh promise me we won't drift n we will still party together n go spinz n chill n talk cock k!! Uve been there through my break up n my dating phase. There's nth I can't tell u n ur always willing to listen. OH OH RETAIL THERAPY!! Ur an awesome shopping partner I swear!! I fking miss u n I love u sooooo bloody much!!!

Yvonne.. U ahhh yòunger than me but still always there for me too. Through all the bitching, gossiping.. Wat would I do without u if I didn't hav ur support n comfort at events!? I think I will die plssss! Thxs for being there for me n u noe I'm always here if u wanna bitch, rant or cry to k!! Love u sweetlet!!

K of course there's my babygirls I've known for yrs!! Vanessa n andria.
U too are 2 babies I will nv hide anything frm. N we 3 are completely honest wif each other. I'm so glad I moved to perth n managed to meet u girlies!! Nw tt ur back.. I'm soooo happy!!! I fking love u girls so much!!no words can measure!! We hav been through so much together esp me n v as our lives are sooooo similar in so many ways. Me n v recently had our 1st quarrel.. But baby I'm glad we can get past all tt. I love u girls so much!! I think I'm written too many of these msges/posts to u girls over the yrs already!! But realli am so fking mega thankful tt ur in my life to always support n pull me through everything even though we are countries apart. I noe in my heart u girls hav nv left me at all. I love u!

K then there the guys.. Luke, karan. William are 3 crazy drunk guys who nv fail to make me laugh so much. Yes I've onli met them this year but gosh they hav been there through my shitty times n happy times too. Partyinh will nv be the same without u guys I swear!!! Esp luke since he's my "part time bf" LOLs!

Frm the relationship I thot I was gonna be in forever.. To all the dating tt didn't last long.. I've def learnt a lot n made me a stronger person. I jus went through my share of heartbreaks n tears recently.. But these all make me stronger n help me grow. So I'm okay wif all this. But while dating.. I lost them as frens n tts wat thing I jus can't accept. I jus hope things will work out somehw eventually.

I noe I've hurt many.. I've been hurt too.. So quits? I think so

This year has been too much for me. So as this is the last day of 2009.. I'm letting all unhappiness n hurts go n putting them behind me n moving on to a fresh start to 2010. Yep yep!
Well I had a good end to 2009 n I predict a good start to 2010. Heee(:

Kk I think my post dam fking longgg.. Need to reply msges n decide to go supper tonite wif kai n co or nt. Hmmm BYE!

HAPPY NEW YR SWEETLETS!!! (:

no more drama plssss

kk enough is enough. im over it.. i dont care.. n i dont want just because of such a small stupid matter to ruin a frenship i had. yea i onli knew her for a short span of 3mths? but to me frenship is more important la...

to me, im too old to fight here fight there over a guy? eh come on la dam stupid plssss n i jus feel its sooooo not worth it. yea at first i do hav to admit i was upset n angry.. but meh thot abt it carefully... so dun want all this drama n wasting all my energy n time on such a small matter. i am honestly alrite nw(: so yep yep!! kindly pls leave me n her alone... cheers! (:

today was jus a chillout day wif andria baby, vanessa baby, sean, shaun, ben n jiajun. it all started wif shisha wif me, andria, sean n shaun. ben came by... alot of random laughters as usual!! me n my stupid laughign fits!! LOLs all the guys jus started staring at me. HAHAHAH! then dinner at fish n co when jiajun n vanessa came by(:

over to douby where we left the boys... andria left. me n vanessa met up wif cherie baby, jollin, pq n jh.. slacked..

heehee * soooo cute!!! he opened the car door for me n pull my chair out at fish n co. OMGOMG can DIE :D kk secret huh between my babygirls n i *wink wink nudge nudge*

okay pics soon!! realli promise!!

ive been neglecting this space!!!!! busy busy schedules n all my late nites hav screwed my bodyclock around even my dad said ive turned the mornings into nites n nites into mornings!! HAHAHA

quick recap

dec 18th
-zirca nite wif kerry babygirl(:
-it turned out into a puke fest... 1st time ever walking out of zirca wif the bouncers gg "omg shar is wasted!! 1st time!!" yea n all the concern comments n all since i was pretty much in a fked up mess crying n being such a baby
-but am sooooooooo thankful for kerry baby for taking care of me AGAIN!! hahaha..
-being sent home in my dad's fren's merz n i thot i was in a cab -.-

sat 19th
-supper wif rachael.. this nite i had to take care of the drunk girl
-but thank goodness for ivan n supper's bouncers ((:

sun 20th
-ss2 at st james.. didnt wanna go... but got dragged down in the end
-turned out to be a good party despite some fked up shit i had to see wif my eyes

mon 21st
-drink.drank.drunk wif B.. k turned out bad too
-found out news from fking TWITTER!? yea pretty much felt like fk thxs

tues 22nd
-suddenly mind blank.. cant rmb where the fk i went!! shit
-oh oh!! i had a shitty nite.. cry.. scream...
-thank god SS flew down n met me. so another drink.drank.drunk
-realli dam thankful tt he flew down jus to comfort me n keep me company instead of balling my eyes out like a loser

wed 23rd
-ladies nite at supper... a fking awesome nite(((: (k despite all the unwanted shit tt happened) wif kerry babygirl, twin +co, tati, sai, vanessa babygirl (shes finally back!!) dj ivan
-realli thank goodness for ethel twin n dj ivan being wif me all nite.. i would hav killed myself realli
-popped by zirca after wif dj ivan to see dj marcus
-veri veri random..
-oh then we met kerry's super drunk fren who was fking entertaining!!
-PRATA for SUPPER!!! (: EPIC moments i tell u!! k onli we(kerry, ivan, sebastien) would noe y!!! LOLS

thurs 24th
-alcova for 'saving santa'.. was at the door the whole time being a door bitch.. HAHA fun fun (: except dealing wif the angsty crowd -.-
-kerry babygirl came to get me n off we went to supper
-stayed there till 2ish? n off we(kerry, dj ivan, dj amy+gf) went to clark to hav bak kut teh!! yummy tumyum

fri 25th
-zirca nite wif kerry baby(: it was a mega awesome nite jus the 2 of us!!! (:
-realli love the vip treatment when we go there!! heehee x) fking love the bouncers, bartenders n the djs like FK!!!!!!
-oh but we were hopping bunnies.. zirca.butter.overeasy.zirca
-met up wif dj ivan n dj iquizzy for a while... iquizzy came wif us to zirca

sat 26th
-met up wif kerry baby + rachael to go hav xlb at raffles be4 heading down supper
-was suppose to be a supper nite but shit happened
-so we(kerry, rachael c, rachael k n sheen) headed down to zirca instead
-luke+co came down too...
-awesome awesome nite as usual(: esp wif the complimentary champange + strawberries frm kenneth
-nite ended wif supper wif my babygirls+boys at newton!!!

sun 27th
k im currently late but blogging.. i havnt been taking much pictures these days cause i cbf carrying my camera everywhere nw
gonna meet andria baby, vanessa baby, sean, shaun n idk who else too!! yepsss.... my nite is nv ending...
its been 8days since i started partying.. im poofed out.. my face is showing.. my skin is like shittt!! URG

anyways am alot more free n less suffocated nw... they can go be happy together i dun realli care. aint gonna sit around to let such small shits hurt me n bring me down!! but it was darn pretty fked up hw they can totally disrespect me!!? fked up people loving in this fked up world. i guess such frens jus arent worth everything huh! OH WELLS! yep yep im back up on my feet n im happy jus wif my babygirls(:

spending 4 nites in a row wif kerry babygirl was darn friggin awesome!!!! (: love u so much sexyshit!!

i promise pics soon!!!! once i get them frm my babygirls' cameras n all (:

hibernation day tmr.. gonna sit by the pool wif a good book n hit the gym!! if im nt too lazy. HAHA (:

kk gg out nw!! BYE

my life sucks nw
it took another 360 turn n poof things went downhill
im suffocating.. i hate some bitches
they should jus go die in a hole
i wanna die in a hole too
and i cant believe how rumours are able to fk and screw me up so badly
have been crying and screaming so much these days
im so so tired but its so hard to fall asleep
with the constant wake ups between
seriously fk my life

though life has been shitty... i had a pretty much awesome weekend. zirca on friday... supper on sat... st james on sunday. yeps 3 hardcore days screwed my bodyclock up bigggg time.

its jus pretty much been booze booze n more booze to take away all this fked up ness in my life.

u noe wat sucks more??!! being kept hanging on wif a 50-50 chance of being let go or staying together. im gg on a hibernation veri soon... but gonna spend some time wif my 2 babygirls andria n vanessa 1st be4 i mia...

k i wanna slap some bitches..

3 MORE DAYS TO THE PARTY OF THE YR!!!
the calender style poster is darn friggin awesome!!!! the catch? well the calender will be given out on the day!!! def a MUST hav to keep to welcome 2010. the calender has tattooists.. musicians.. ruggers... models.. party people n djs!!! def def an awesome stuff u must hav!!

yeppersss but am having mix feelings still... oh wells... i realli need my fri nite wif my babygirl kerry n the whole lot too!! (:

monday 14th dec
-after skool headed to town n met andria baby(:
-heeeeeheeee me n babygirl's secret.
-lala landed till 11ish
-a veri random n crazy day.. but i likkeeeyy alot(:
B.E.S.Test day ever HANDS DOWN!

tuesday 15th dec
-spinz on my own to attempt to catch up on my assignments
-decided to meet up wif andria baby n sinead since they were around
-shawn came down.. f21 where i retail therapied!! heehaww(:
-dinner at koba... sinead left... ion to meet ben n darren
-watched the guys hav dinner.. ben drove so off we went to parklane
-talk chill laugh... i think the guys find me amusing cause i laugh non-stop!! HAHAHA

yeps im quite loving my life nw.. without these unwanted pressure n anxiety.. i think my life would be perfect. but mehh aint gonna bring me down down down!! (:

i jus realise i got alot of secret code words on my blog nw. HAHAHA!! like funaayyyee!

kk byee! gonna sleep... fk skool! URG

hop hoppidy HOP!!

i love this babygirl sooooo much!!!! muacks baby!!(: am soooo glad ur back!!!

friday 11th dec

-drinking session at B's.. which turned out fking bad

-k watever.. but supper after tt at newton wif yp n wh..

saturday 12th dec

-my day started off earlier than norm... around 4plus i was in town already to meet ANDRIA BABY who jus came back n sam

-towned.. n i got a pleasant surprise. heeehaww

-kk then town got boring.. so over to boat quay!!!!

-bumped into ambra dearie along the way

-"i hav nv.. i hav" till we started laughing non stop!!

-over to homeclub to meet ambra n met some bloody cool people

-k over to zirca to see my babies n boyyy they n their nonsense!!

-they said they missed me!! awww (: such sweeties.. yea miss me n my sweets.. oh n me running to macs/the kiosk to buy macs/cigs for them. pfftt like their maid!!

-went in to say hihi somemore... then the 2 girls left...

-over to supperclub wif the partybox crew

-my nite ended up earlier than usual cause i was already gone n i felt like shiittt!!

yeps n baby loves me too!! heh((:

so things hav been good so far. except for the excess/unwanted pressure n suffocation? other than tt im hanging on quite well.. still deciding where to hibernate. maybe over to one of my baby's crib? heeeee(:

k is it my fault that when i wanted to fight for you... you chose to say fked up shit to me? n now that ive moved on you wanna fight for me? sorry hun you had your chance but you blew it. -END.. cause i had enough-

okay so all my babies are either heading to zirca/butter/supperclub tmr. n guess where i will be!!? at home rushing out assignments. yeps HATE MY FKED UP SKOOL! nvm gonna clear everything be4 xmas!!!

happy me shall jus hang in there n nt crack under pressure!! YES YES GO ME!

ily n imy sooooo fking much its driving me insane!!! :(

SOUND SERIES 2 at ST JAMES POWERHOUSE!!
try finding tiny me in this "family portrait" heeehawww(; massive party to end 2009!!! need tickets or more info???!!! LET ME NOE on my fb/twitter/comment on my tagboard!!! =D

k i was kinda stoked for this party... but meh nt anymore. too much happening.. ups n downs.. sorri guys im gonna DISAPPEAR!!!

happy trying to find out abt my life when ive pretty much locked up my public twitter acc n ive got a private acc for MY EYES onli!! seriously i think everyone needs to get a life n stop meddling into my life!! fking cannot stand it already. dun make me make a decision which for me can happen within 2mths!!! fk yea bitches!!

wat to look forward for for the next 2 weeks be4 i disappear till im happy to come back..

fri 18th- zirca nite wif my babygirls
sat 19th- out wif andria baby
sun 20th- still having 2nd thots abt sound series

tues 22nd- sabai wif yvonne baby n co
wed 23rd- ladies nite + my baby vanessa comes back
thurs 24th- zirca
fri 25th- zirca/supper
sat 26th- GOODBYE!!

jus give me abt a week more... n tts it. this space will be empty.. my fb n public twitter acc will be quieter.. my private twitter will be kept alive.

need.to.find.a.getaway.asap! which of my babygirls wanna come join me?

i didnt mean to fall in love.. but i did. nw.. idk wat to do. to walk away or to stay and let my heart get shot by arrows...

sigh... tell me wat to do. tell me hw not to fall in love pls

friday 27th to saturday 28th nov
town.supperclub
ps.. it was an impromptu trip down to supper n i was totally nt dressed plsss!!!
n guess who i bumped into at supper'd dancefloor!!?cutest couple by farrrrk i realli dun rmb taking this pic at all!! LOL n no i wasnt realli gone but idk i jus cant rmb it being taken at all. LOLSsaturday 28th to sunday 29th nov

supperclub.zouk. a very random but memorable niteeee!!k theres still pics from last fri n butter on tues... oh n im trying to get pics from the shoot. wheehaaa(:

skool is killing my poor souls..

ps.. im surrounded by fking hypocrites n backstabbers. woot woot!

wat should i do tonite!!? supperclub or steamboat/commit suicide wif my boys n girls?? hmm.. it has been a while since i saw those bunch.. maybe i should jus steamboat.. poker.. commit suicide today wif them? oh oh!! tmr nite me, etheltwin n deline are gg CLINIC!! wheee STOKKKEEDD!! then maybe head to supper after(: k i love my weekends!! sunday.. STUDY!! realli.need.to.stop.PROCRASTINATING!!!!

tuesday 8th dec-9th dec
-skool as usual...
-came home n hibernated like some pigggg
-got ready.. headed down to raffles place to meet yvonne baby(:
-off we went to butter which we stupidly got lost n it was quite funni
-found everyone (fai, dew, erica, solo, shuwen, randall, kai, keon, claire, ridwan, shxiong, luke, william, shanice, cindy, shermin, nessa n alot others)
-slacked till the cows came home.. it was a dam slow n late nite
-oh oh lester came by wif a few of the bouncers from zirca wif the intention of gg butter
-but because of the no alcohol rule.. they decided to head to supper instead.
-anyways the party turned out pretty much awesome despite the lack of alcohol. LOLs
-butter-ed till like 3am... slack slack for a while...
-home sweet home

k so im invited to go butter again tmr for the pioneer digital battle since marcus is spinning!!! omgomg so lost nw. hmmmm....

anyways.. stoked for some fri n sat nite crazy fun!! =D YAY

why are all my babygirls getting heart broken recently!!!???? WHY WHY U TELL ME WHY!!?

when girls get heart broken... they dun eat
me on the other hand... im happy so im eating alot.
thxs huh!! when all my babygirls are getting thin im getting fat. pffftttt

i feel like ripping those morons' heads n balls!!! RAAHH ANGST ANGST!!

k i give u babygirls my love alrighttyyy!! sigh...

butter-ing on tues wif my babygirls n boys!! (: heehee STOKED TIMES A MILLION!!!!

nite nite... piggy here is gonna sleep. HAY DIET TMR!!! =D dun ask. lols

pics from 2 weeks ago...
21st-22nd nov @ Zircaso a recap of this week
friday 4th dec- jiejie's 24th!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! LOVE U!
-rush homed... zoom out again to town to meet yvonne baby n lendl... best was around so i met up wif him too n all he could say *blah blah blah* idiot got dam pissed off plssss
-zirca to see my bouncerboys ive missed for 1 week...
-over to boat wif yvonne n gawd tt place it jus so repulsive i tell u!
-back to zirca to see william n co
-off to supper to meet alvin
-supper-ed till 3ish? ah bao, sarah, shanice, hansa, cindy, kai, shuwen, solo n others
-alot of shit happened.. gawd our hearts almost dropped out. thank gawwdd all went well

saturday 5th dec
-k so wif 3 hrs of sleep.. i woke up n rushed down for the photoshoot wif the party box crew for sound series 2 + the models for osf + bands for sound series 2 + youth empire people
-turned out almost everyone had a late fri nite too... everything was pushed back
-photoshoot went veri well((: alot of fun though we were all sooooo poofed out
-looking at the models for osf runway show.. made me feel like a hippo :( gawwdd i felt like shit!
-we all planned to supper/butter at nite but everyone jus went home after the shoot n K.Oed!! fking funni
-i was even suppose to go rebel but i chose none of the above. NOT BAD AYYYEEEE!
-ended up watching hsm3.. twilight... cow belles!! =D

sunday 6th dec
-stay home/hibernation/lazy sunday/my pig out day!!!

HAPPY TIMES A MILLION!!

k am stoked for butter on tues. n idk y!! k i noe y im jus lying to myself. LOLS! MORAL SUPPORT FTW!!!!

okay good nite!!! blasttttttttttttttttt