so the boyfren is flying off in 2hrs time AGAIN. fking hell.. k this post will be veri angry. cuz rite nw im jus a mad bitch. so filled wif hatred abt everything in this world. i jus wanna scream n shout or punch someone so hard tt my knuckles hurt too. he jus came back 2 weeks ago n nw hes off again. wats worse is tt when he comes back on the 9th of march.. he stays for a mth n he flies off again to taiwan. seriously can u imagine hw mad i am!!?k but i go through this phase... i get mad for a while.. then i calm down n im proud of wat he does. he makes me proud to be his girlfren wif wat he does n all. nt many guys can take up this responsibility n hav this much courage to actually work in the army. esp when he can easily strike a conversation wif my uncle or male frens who was in the army be4.
but wat he say is rite la. when hes actually back... we create AMAZING memories together. if u wanna noe wat he did for me on vday... well i cant say it but it was jus MAGICAL! he gave me a vday which i hav always pictured hw a perfect vday would be. if i were a guy n i was planning for my gf.. he totally took my idea n gave it to me. but no he didnt take my idea but he planned everything so nicely n perfectly. i had the best nite evverrr. no words can describe hw brightly i smiled.. hw blissful n happy i was. it was an expensive vday on his part. but we both had so much fun n we were truely happy. im glad we managed to spend vday be4 he flew off. these memories created tt nite was so magical n memorable. it will be brought wif us for the rest of our lives together.
so this was my vday prezzie to him. matching bracelets. mine says "sean's" his says "shar's". n i did a video for him which i jus gave him jus nw. im glad my crazy dancing n heart felt words touched his heart in every way.
baby i miss u already. im irritated n annoyed. i do feel like screaming at ur face nw. but i noe when i see u.. i jus cant bring myself to cuz ur face jus brightens up my day.. cheers me up n makes me forget abt all the unhappiness n sadness. baby the memories we created on our 1st vday together will always be locked away in my heart. n when i miss u like crazy i will jus sit down quietly n let my mind run back to tt veri special day. where u held me in ur arms when i cried like a baby. getting all emotional becuz of moet n chandon. no it wasnt the champagne. but my heart was ripping apart at tt moment. all i could do was cry in ur embrace. but after all the crying.. u always noe wat to say to make me feel better n smile again.u noe hw much u mean to me... i hate to see u go again. nt seeing u for 21 days when ive been seeing u everyday for the past 2 weeks. i wonder when will i pluck up the courage to actually send u off? i guess never. its jus too painful to watch u walk away frm me.
k to many it may be jus 21 days n im jus being a baby abt it. but when u actually experience it.. gawwdd its heart wrenching n SOOOO PAInful.
im torn apart nw... waiting for u to come back n sew me back together. i miss you already baby.. take care okay. n i love u like CRAZY. u noe tt... forever n ever.. forever in my heart. iloveyou
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