wat a wasted niteeee!!!
so this was last nite! k i noe i look totally smashed in the pics but by the time we took those pics we had 7 jugs of beer, shots of tequila, cherry shooter, butterscotch shooter n whisky coke! yepsss! i was having a hard time smiling cuz i jus couldnt stop laughing!! i was the happy high drunk last nite! k we all were!

after our forensic paper.. isk dropped me home then i came home having inspirations for me n bf's bday!! yeps we are having a combine theme party!!! gonna be heading to get party supplies on saturday n the invites will be sent out by this wkend(: kinda stoked cuz i got the theme done.. entertainment n even the cake!! k i thot abt the flavour of the cake but nt the design yet!! sigh hopefully i can think of one by the end of this wk! (:

anyways then i got ready n headed down to cityhall n met my bros isk n xavier n when we met we were like "WTH y are we all in BLACK!!!". headed down to town 1st.. ion for my yami yogurt, far east for chicken rice n the tw sweet potato thingy then we strolled down to cuscaden! n tts when the madness began!!

we drank till like thr was no tmr! meeting random people n talking to them n all! nice people at cuscaden. running up the dam escalator countless times jus to get to the toilet. im still rather amazed at hw i managed to walk up wasted in my 4 inch clogs! after a while julian joined us n it got crazier! we started talking abt realli DETAILED nonsense n all! whoa i had a blast! the best part was the last... we staggered our drunk lil asses to orchard mrt station n took a dam train home!! n i even heard the train song n shouted "OMG I LOVE THE TRAIN SONG!" embarrassing but true! lol

i got my drunk lil ass to yck station whr bf picked me up. thank goodness for him cuz idk hw i would hav made it home! he even had to help me upstairs cuz the fatty boy was staying over n as i stepped into the hse.. i fell rite on my ass! SOOOOOOOO WASTED! but it was a great nite! but then ive swore nt to drink till my bday next wk!

ive become such a FAIL drinker! my threshold is still thr like i still no whr i am n all but the kick hits me much faster than be4!! PUI tts the cost i hav to pay for quitting my partying lifestyle! gonna try to tank next wk for my bday!!

so today is a lazy day n thank goodness i didnt wake up wif a hang over!! watched gossip girl, 90210, vampire diaries, showered the smelly boy. n nw im gonna watch glee! k BYE!

its been a while......
mega looonnnngggggg post!

wanna say thxs to those who still read my blog even wif my minimal postings!! but ive jus been such a boring person wif studying at starbucks almost everyday! so here are pics frm MANY wks ago!!

-when bf n i had the car.. cruising around like "grown ups"... him being awesome picking me up frm skool n driving to town((: heeeheeee. oh n this was the day we went on our mooncake hunt!!! YESS we LOVE mooncakes!!!! we paraded around the taka sq like up n down many aisles trying samples frm atas hotels to those pastry shops around chinatown? we went down to taka twice!!! choc baileys, oreo cheesecake, cranberry, strawberry hibiscus, peach cheesecake, passionfruit!! OMG n they are ALL MOONCAKES OKAAYYY!! DIVINE I TELL U!
some pics of the 2 monsters at my place(: tell me my dog n cat are like SUPER PHOTOGENIC!! OMG any pet mags tt see this if u wanna book them as models.. omg i WILL SAY YESSSS!!!! =D email me k! LOLoh this was when jewel "smacked" mochi cuz he was too close to her! in her lil space! LOL
so on fri jus be4 my psych paper.. i felt mega sick so wif the help of isk n xavier they shoved me into a cab n i went to ktp hosp n paps rushed down to meet me thr. ran blood n pee test nw watever nt. couldnt detect anything. PUI but my doc said i wasnt fit for my exam n gave me an mc. realli wanted to give my paper a miss said i didnt study at all but aiya 100 mcq onli so jus anyhw... but i did okay i think! bf came to pick me up when i was done n drove to get supper since its a MUST tt i eat (order frm my mum, paps, docs n bf!) to stop my low BP.

k anyways... SOMEONE IS TURNING 18 in 13days!!! WHOOOOOO =D u noe hw stoked i am!!!!! k so normally everyone who turns legal will def head to zouk. well ive been thr done tt n i feel its overrated. plus every underage punk can enter like its lost its novelty already! so... im heading to... PLAY ON MY BDAY!!!! on a SATURDAY NITE!! yepperrss its GAY nite!! =D so im gonna be finding my GAY BESTFREN at PLAY on my bday!!

i asked bf to hire a girl n give her to me as my girl bestfren for my bday prezzie this yr. cuz 2 of my girl bestfrens are in perth.. too far away frm. n kerry baby is too busy n all! so i NEED a new BESTFREN!! but aiya i nv realli click wif much girls. like u either hav to be a party crazy woman like me or is small as me! LOL n i too feel tt girls are VICIOUS creatures!! so i figured y nt i get a GAY BEST FREN!!!? (: honestly i feel they are the NICEST people eveerrrr with GREAT fashion sense!! so yes im pretty stoked for PLAY on my bday((:

n paps is gg bkk next thurs for a food convention thingy n i REALLI wanna go!! so it would make my pre-bday PERFECT!! and and hes also gg to paris during my bday wk so im hoping for an AWESOME 18th bday prezzie!! *hint hint wink wink*

last nite i camped over in my sister's room jus like old times(: n today was a lazy lazy day. movies, dramas all day!! pizza for lunch, paps cooked herbal soup for both of us be4 he left for work in the morning for dinz n he kept calling to make sure we ate. LOL hes so cute! then me n my sis walked to the pasar malam n bought alot of nonsense!! WAAHH SHIOK! i LOVE pasar malams! =D

last paper on tues! n after tt i will be planning an AWESOME bday for me n bf((: wheeee =D superly stoked seriously!! we are having a combine bday celebration!!! plus mumsie is coming back in oct too!

OCTOBER OCTOBER OCTOBER!!! OMG faster COME NOWWW!

i wish i had a button to off all the misery and pain im feeling
i realli feel like im living in hell. i realli dunno how i make it through my everyday. studying, exams, weight n body issues, teenage angst, personal pains... i dunno how to deal with everything thrown at me now. i used to be such an optimistic person. but jus this yr ive been receiving blows after blows, its jus too much for me to handle. ive become a sad miserable person. i jus wanna scream and cry rite nw at this moment. i wanna get drunk n forget everything. my life has become shitty n mundane. waking up everyday is such a painful and tedious thing to do. sometimes i wish i can sleep n wake up only when I feel like it. nt wake up n deal wif everything.

im hoping all this is my pms. but i noe it isnt cuz its too early for me to be feeling like this. i dunno hw to cheer myself up. retail therapy? i dun even hav the mood n ability to drag myself out of the hse n battling wif the sun. im rite nw at starbucks n u noe it took me so much effort jus to change n get my ass out of the hse. i realli dunno hw i do all this.

my mood is jus like the weather. unpredictable. im tired.. i jus wanna be in my mum's embrace. yea but shes so many countries away. tears are welling up in my eyes rite nw. im tt miserable. i feel suffocated n lost.. aggitated n annoyed. i cant smile.. i cant function.. i cant even concentrate on watever im studying. i feel soul less. its like my soul has left me when i sleep n its yet to find its way back to my body. im an empty carcus.

i wanna get drunk n party my life away. can i jus do tt for 1 whole week? maybe i shall. when 28th sept ends.. im gonna be partying or chilling wif drinks wif people tt make me happy. n when my bday comes.. im gonna do the same: party n get drunk. tts wat i need to do rite nw!

but i realli am thankful for my boyfren who has been supporting me no mater wat i do. hes always encouraging me when i feel shit abt myself. when my self-esteem is low to the roots in the ground. when i feel fat he always tells me im pretty n loves me unconditionally for who i am. when i wanna get drunk he lets me but watches me n makes sure hes there. when i feel like giving up he pushes me n picks me up. when i cry he jus listens quietly over the fone or if hes beside me.. hugs me so tight n jus let me cry. its becuz of him i dun give up entirely on my life. its becuz of him n the dog tt keep me sane in this shitty ass world. i would hav died a long time ago if i hav nv found him. so thank u my baby.. n i love u

realli cant fking wait for exams to be over! trust me u will see me back at my home (zirca) every wk! i need tt kind of liberation after so long of being trapped in this lil bubble.

HEY! we got a NEW DOG!!! (:
we decided to trade in our crazy dog for a more well behaved one! k im kidding!! lol everyone has been asking me whether we got a new dog! LOL but no.. mochi jus had a new hair cut!! we honestly couldnt recognise him when we picked him up! but he jus ran out n ritw into our arms so we confirmed tt "YEP tts OUR crazy boy!!"

sean even think his hair cut made him more "sane"? cuz his scruffy look gave him some kind of crazy personality but nw tt hes cleanly shaved down.. hes more calm which suits his cut? idk man

before
after...will post up pics frm yesterday's crazy karaoke day wif my bros! it was EPIC FUN!! crazy screaming n jumping on couches! FUN SHITTZZZ

oh n my bf is the sweetest everrrrrr. aiyo cannot stand him n his sweetness!! sometimes i feel im gonna die frm diabetes cuz of him! HAHAH! k BYE criminal minds nw!!

i really love my bestest boyfren in the world(((:

boyfren has been the bestest!! (well he always is) nw tt he has the car.. hes been picking me up from skool, sending me to meet my bros to study then leaving to go home n rest then come back to pick me up again when im done! (: oh n even drove me to go get my shoes! realli appreciate him driving up n down jus for me. nw ive become so dependent on his car to send me around. BAD BAD BAD cuz next wk his rents comes back home which means no more frequent use of the car!! :( well it was good while it lasted(: n hes been hanging around my bros n i getting to noe them n they all simply ADORE him as much as i do(:

i love so much baby! n i realli cannot thank u enough!

OMG i NEED to post a pic of mochi boy soon!! HES MAD CUTE wif his new hair cut!! basically nw u can realli tell hes a schnauzer! LOL

so yest we dropped our babyboy down for his grooming. bf drove me to dover n get my shoes then HV for crystal jade xlb which was OMG ORGASMIC! waayyyy nicer then dtf i swear! paps was rite! then walked around HV which was like memories for me cuz me n mumsie always went there last time n gosh the shops which are like nearly 10plus yrs old were still there!! went to get babyboy n we got a shock wif his hair cut!! totally couldnt recognise him at all but luckily he could recognise us! if nt we would hav thot we picked up the wrong dog!!! went back to bf's n lazed around, he played W.O.W while i finished my stupid spss report then dropped babyboy back to my hse cuz my sis wanted to see him. then we went to watch 'cats n dogs: revenge of kitty galore'. it was MAD CUTE! then home we went((:

k shall post a pic of babyboy soon! BYE

i fking HATE SPSS!!!

GAAHHH stupid stats assignment n SPSS is a BITCH! but thank goodness for my steph dear to help me! anyways... im soooo bored so im blogging!

its quite sad hw i havnt been gg out to take pics. me n mr yang hav been lazy potatoes. jus staying at home n watching tv. no we dun pig out THAT much but nw wif the car, we can get around but we are jus so lazy. plus its study break already n i realli MUST study! skool has drained my social life n its killing ALL OF US! bf has been busy n tired wif work so our outings hav been minimised! yea so no clubbing either n its been 3 mths!!? OMG longest hiatus eveeeerrrrr!

this was taken on 13th aug at zouk for justin's nus biz pageant
n 14th aug when me n bf went to watch 'the last airbender'. i must say it was quite good even though i diss the cartoon all the time! tmr is gonna be a day out like FINALLY!! yea but jus to send our furball son to grooming. (he smells like pee btw!) n to collect my shoes!!! WHOOO =D

k shall concenrate on my criminal minds! BYE!

LONG POST AHEAD!! (to make up for the 2wks i havnt blogged)

boyfren jus reminded me hw long i havnt blogged. n im guessing no one reads my blog anymore due to my disappearance. but mehhh i blog when i feel like it! n if ur "lucky" to chance upon this space.. i may hav updated!

its 1 day after the 1st of sept but... HAPPY 8th baby!! (: bf has a fish craze so he bought an aquarium n i got him 4 fishes for his 8th mth prezzie! n i noe hw much he loves his prezzie! we had a nice chill day at home at nite after baby finished work. i went to the hosp n then studied at macs at yishun then he picked me up(: be4 we got out of the car he said "ur 8th mth prezzie is on the way." this boy always noes hw to spring surprises on me! I LOVE U! had pasta for dinz n decided to be tv addicts (yea our FAV past time together) n watch our new fav channel 'food network asia'!! yepperss we ARE food crazy people!! but yet we are people wif small appetites!! so its dam sad hw we both cant go for buffets or steamboat cuz for me i def dun eat worth the buffet or watever is cost!

*k some pics taken jus then when we were bumming at my place!*

on the good side my monsterous eating hav plunged n ive lost weight again!! (: am almost to my ideal weight but yet everyone is saying "stop losing weight u bitch!" haa

on the bad side.. if uve followed my twitter i did go through some pitfalls on monday due to my grades. i nv felt so down abt my grades till i cried! i always made fun of girls who cried during pri n sec skool. but hello this is UNI!! my future depends on this $40 000 dam paper!!! so i broke down. but realli cannot thank my bf, mum n bros tt encouraged me the whole of monday! my bros took me out to eat my cravings for the day: oreo, cookie spinz n fried rice n they ate my leftovers! LOL n they acknowledged hw much help ive been to them if nt they wouldnt hav scored. realli MAD LOVE my BROS (: then wif bf n mum's constant support.. im alot better! wats better than being surrounded by people who love u n pick u up when u feel like crap!!? (:

so exams are coming soon.. n i freaking cant wait for it to be over!! so many plans after!! WHOOOO

plan 1: visit mummy in shanghai (yea i noe i vowed on my life i will nv step into a cheena country but for i love my mummy!) then fly back home. celebrate my bday in sg at ZIRCA n PLAY! then fly off to perth wif bf n darren! then back home to celebrate bf's bday!

plan 2: if mummy comes home, shanghai n perth trip cancelled. but ZIRCA n PLAY plan is a def! then maybe a bkk trip wif bf n darren!! (: then back home to celebrate bf's bday!

yesss people i CANT wait to turn 18 n go to PLAY on my bday which happens to fall on a sat nite this yr n its GAY NITE at PLAY!! im gg on a hunt to find a gay bestfren!! WAH DAM STOKED PLSSS!

k i jus took 2 spoons of cough syrup n my drowsy flu med to make me sleep. im loopy n groggy nw n my monster furball son cant wait for me to sleep cuz hes like KO-ed on the marble floor.

shall end wif a crazy CLASSIC face of mine! tt furball of mine was literally chomping on my hand while bf took this pic!

ps.. i LOVE this drowsy groggy feeling! HAAAA

n i LOVE u SEAN YANG!!!