its jus me n my dog on a friday nite

yeppers ive been home the whole day! out sick wif my allergies acting up cuz the cat slept wif me n the dog last nite on my pillow. breathing her fur into my nose jus clogged up my nose n made things so bad for me in the morning. wanted to press on n got changed to go to skool but my eyes were watery, puffy n my nose all red like rudolf so i decided to jus stay home n bed rest all day((:

n bf has some deepavali event thingy in camp at nite so im home in front of the lappy camwhoring wif my furball son who has been annoyingly naughty these days! grrr.. peeing on the couch like for the 1st time!? omg i was soooo angry n jus when i was gg to meet my bros to discuss our assignment!

yay so bf jus called((: hate hw his camp has like no reception!!? so basically frm 9am to 5pm hes like uncontactale. so when he gets home i always feel happy to hear his voice!

k i shall go get to shower. n nw the question is... to Halloween or nt to Halloween tmr??! hmmmm...

if yall hav been following my twitter... ive been ranting n getting all pissy abt wat frens i hav these days. well obviously i noe ive got a handful tt i can count on n these are mostly the guys! the girls are jus disappointing!!! like wth!? i wont go into detail wat has been gg on but this is jus another reason y i choose n hav more guy pals or bros than girlfrens. cuz girls jus simply cant be trusted! ive been peeved for quite a number of days. as in nt like i hav nv noticed this pattern be4 in my frens but i guess recently it has become more prominent n it also happened to my bf too! so i guess both of us hav come to a point whr we both dunno who realli are our frens tt got our backs n who will keep to their promises in a frenship. sometimes i jus feel tt such people arent worth my time or anger at all. but being me.. i always over-think things n if u realli do noe me nth is more impt than my frens. like if u need me to listen to u rant over a terrible bf or a bad break up or gossip mongers.. u noe i will def drop watever i am doing n loan u my ears n time. but y cant yall do tt for me? like i feel most of my frenships wif my girls are all 1 sided. like its always me whos thr for u but ur nv thr for me?

wat makes me feel worse is tt my bf hasnt been able to listen to my rants recently since hes so drained after work n all he jus wanna sleep n rest n our fone calls are cut down to its minimum. also noe wif his 'save $ for my vroom vroom' plan, meeting each other is also cut down too esp during the wkdays. k la but i noe im nv alone as long as i hav my baby wif me. or at least i hav our furball son to "fill" in for him until hes free to talk to me.

apart frm all this.. skool jus started. 2nd day n ive already missed tutorials but becuz i was sick okaayy! omg jus thinking abt this makes my blood boil but my skool is a total BITCH ASS i tell u! fking 2hrs of drilling when im having lecture jus rite next to the dam lecture hall. like seriously wtf!!? are yall so stupid!!? so u can imagine us battling wif the dam drilling n being forced to concentrate on the lecture. yea i walked out having a bad ass headache tt knocked me out the whole nite! geezz tts like 1 more reason added to my 101 hates abt my fking STUPID N RETARDED skool! k seriously.. DUN EVER STUDY AT JCU singapore!!
(fking still resent tt shit for manipulating my mind to coming back! yea i could hav been in UWA okay bitch! k but watever at least i found the love of my life while i came back!(:

k but apart frm my skool being the totally suckish skool on the entire planet... i met some pretty awesome people! so tts the ONLI plus point to my skool! k 1 day i shall list down a few reasons y one should NEVER enrol into my skool!!!

im hungry as im typing this. guess i better head to bed! my rents hav been on my case lately abt me sleeping so late n blah blah blah cuz of my low BP n wat nt. oh n so is my bf! toooddllleesss!

ps.. i miss this boy hell alot :( n its ok if we dun hav frens! cuz at least we noe we hav each other! so suck on tt world!! frens?! PUI! my asssssss!
pss.. ive unlocked my twitter acc! <--- so start following me again!!!

on 23rd october.. just 2 wks after i turned 18.. my bf turned 23!! =D

bbq bday celebration for my babyboy. n i got him a yummy tumtum choc banana cake!! omg it was sooooo good everyone was raving abt it! =D yay i did a gd job! n im so happy i spent his bday wif him(: i love u so much baby!! my cutie pootsie pie!

back frm Play. im exhausted n wasted!! as im typing this im headachy!! omg idk hw much shit i drank tonite? k nt alot but like the drinks were quite strong i must say! Play was awesome wif my twin n darren(: had such a blast as its a totally diff scene frm wat im used to (Zirca) n gosh i still had so much fun!!! met alot of new faces, old faces! (: but nevertheless i still am thankful to be wif my bf! dun get me wrong im totally open to the gay scene n im so accepting n rather i LOVE them more than "my own kind"! but jus tt it aint for me!


k i think i better crash like nw? super tired nw! n still gotta wake up for lunchy wif my mumsie n sister later! will post pics up when im nt in this state (high/wasted) BYEEE

i miss my boy :(
so i havnt seen my boy in 4 days :( its depressing realli. cuz his new work thingy is tiring him out tt i dun even hav time to see him when he finishes work. sigghh k but at least fri n sat nite will be OUR nite. k rather fri(: gg for a french dinz to celebrate his bday. n saturday is whr all our frens come together n celebrate our bday together! cant waittt

anyways today will be a nite out wif twin((: plan is to head to Play but im having this lazy mode. omg maybe cuz skool is starting n its hitting me. i honestly feel like chilling out wif drinks instead of partying partying. oh wells we shall see wat happens when i actually step out of the hse

ive been eating so much yogurt the whole day(: LOVE LOVE YOGURT!! k gonna go watch E! news! byeeee

i hate wearing metal head bands!!!

friday 15th oct
i was a lazy potato at home((: slept like a pig since bf was too after his work. n this neh neh pork didnt ans my fone n i got a bbm frm darren saying to meet for dinz then drinks at liquid kitchen after. so mumsie dropped me off at bf's hse n luckily he was awake by then. so we drove to pick darren up n headed to gardens for dinz. but bf had a MEGA HUGE BF cuz we couldnt even get parking even at his club so we left for amk n had dodgy steamboat!! omg the hygiene was MORTIFYING!!! OMG OMG! DUN EVER go to shabu shabu at amk hub!! its TERRIBLE!

after dinz it was over to liquid kitchen for some drinks n jerry joined us. simple nite but at least i was out!!!!
i was having mega gastric pains tts y i was so upset :(sunday 17th oct
a veri late day as usual since sleeping seems to be the onli thing i LOVE to do during my hols. then mumsie came home n i woke jiejie n nick up n we headed down to ion to paradise dynasty for their 8 signature xlbs again!! bf met us thr(: it was such a nice dinz. felt like some fam outing!! AWWW (: we had like 4 "longs" of the signature xlbs n trust me i nv get tired of it!! the flavours are sooooo different n exotic unlike the usual pork xlbs at dtf or wat nt. so this is my last wk of hols!! booo :( im kinda wanting to go through the whole studying n rushing assignment phase again but i noe when it begins im gonna say "OMG make it STOP!!" well cant wait to go skool wif the craziest n most enjoyable people in the world(: i miss my bros!! last wk of hols means i better club like mad this wk!! thurs is a date wif my twint to play! n hopefully sat too! oh which reminds me i better post on the fb event wal!! me n bf are having a combine bday celebration on sat wif everyone else n since thr are so many october babies.. its jus a whole big party for the octy kids!! STOKED! cant wait to sink my teeth into the banana choc cake i ordered for the party!

k better head to bed soon! me, mumsie n jiejie were watching desp hsewives jus like good old times(: bummed hw mumsie is leaving on sunday :( oh wells at least she came back!

how on earth is it possible for 2 complete strangers who hav NEVER crossed paths have the exact same thinking and almost the same words when posting stuffs online!!? odd much!? k its kinda creepy actually...

okay tt aside... mumsie is finally home!! onli for a mere 10 days but it was nice(: i had this whole lil secretive plan to tell my mum we werent picking her up frm the airport since she kept saying she will jus cab home. so we drove down to the airport.. she called me when she landed n i was at coffee bean wif my sister getting a caramel frap. then we went to the arrival hall n she called again "papa isnt picking me up rite?" i said "eh nope!" she went "okay i will jus catch a cab home" i laughed when i put down the fone n told my sister "she doesnt noe we are here!" my sis goes "ur so retarded!" if u dun already noe.. i LOVE surprises! which also means i love surprising others too! seeing my mum's face light up when she saw us was priceless(: my lies worked! HAAAAA

anyways apart frm this.. ive home for 2 days n im gaining alot of weight!! cuz on monday nite bf drove me to the supermarket to stock up my hse.. BAD CHOICE!! nw i noe y my mum n bf HATES gg grocery shopping wif me! i buy nonsense n mainly FATTY NONSENSE!! so ive been eating different snacks every hr!! ritz crackers, honey graham cereal, tuna butter roll, kaya toast, lays bbq chips, OMG SOMEONE CALL ME OUT PLSSSS!! i realise when i party drink n get drunk i lose the MOST WEIGHT!! i dun even eat!! i NEED HELP!!!

hope i see bf tmr! cuz i havnt seen him in 2 days n rarely spoke to him either. hes started his new job n all so less time to call me while hes at work.. let alone ans my calls. booo :( n i wanna drive!!! grrrr oh if yall dunno my bf has been teaching me hw to drive a manual car so i wont be so stupid when i actually get behind the wheel. n i must say its darn fun!! though on the 1st time i screamed n went "FK FK FK!" up to nw my bf goes around telling EVERYONE hw i reacted n wat i said -.- oh wells!

wanted to post a pic but cant find one. k i think im dam recuperating frm my bday wk! so im ready to get drunk n party again! (: n i think ima go start working at _____ next wk! since they say i dun need to be interviewed.. technically im hired? shall text kenneth n find out the details n all! must start training my legs to stand for 8hrs! YEA GO ME! n $ can start rolling in!! WHOOOO =D guess i gotta start when i start skool though. since bf's bday is next sat!

need to stop bloggin n go to bed. but im SOOOO AWAKE! feel like gg running! but thrs like 2 maniac psycho murderers around my hse? 1 at woodlands n another at yishun. pfftt i shall be like an FBI on criminal minds! HAHAHA

k im realli bored n im SOOOO AWAKE!! wat to do at 3am someone tell me!!!?

i must be the luckiest girl on this planet...

ive got the best boyfren anyone can ask for... who always takes my petty nonsense. encourages me n picks me up when i feel like the shittest person on this planet. n we both noe hw much we cant live wifout each other. n im so happy tt his dad has acknowledged me as his girlfren nw!! (: his dad is jus like my dad so i made some improvements! n his sister n bro-in-law always tell the kids to call me 'aunty' LOL n his mum has been concerned over my health n all. so it is comforting to noe hw accepting n nice his fam is abt us(: makes everything so much easier ya noe! i love u sean yang see jay!
my twin who has watched me grow frm a total mess last yr till wat i am today... n whos bday was yesterday (11th oct) HAPPY BDAY! ive known her for a yr plus n im so glad i met her! n she bought me jaggerbombs on my bday! or rather we always get so drunk together whenever we party! LOL I LOVE U!! n twins for life i sweaarrrr!my sexy babygirl who is ALWAYS here for me too! when i cry she hugs me n tell me to stop.. she comforts me n tells me everything is okay n she will be by my side. n i always hav a ton of fun when im out partying wif her! oh n i kissed her on her lips!! boys be JEALOUS!the bestest bros in this world(: who crashed my place a day be4 our stats paper. we talked till 2am plus abt our lives... skool isnt fun wifout them seriously! n they are so full of nonsense sometimes! always disturbing me but yet looking out for me all the time when we are out together be it in skool or drinking. thxs so much!n my new gbff (which i didnt get to take an indi shot wif!!) im so glad hes so buddy wif my twin!!! they were mad cute i swear!! cant wait for my twin to come back frm perth cuz we all will be hitting PLAY to party like MADDD (:yall made my bday the bestest everrrr! k more bday pics up soon!

went to register for my theory lessons n wat nt today!! (: soon there will be a new driver on the road yo!! gonna attempt to get my license by feb next yr!!! then frm thr persuade paps to get me n my sis a car! WHOOO =D

anyways i had a crazy thot.. if psychology doesnt work out for me i should go be a private investigator! its like im soooo good at digging shit abt people. even if its on purpose or by coincidence! LOL k im totally kidding abt being a PI but realli if u want me to dish out any shit abt a cheating boyfren/girlfren or ex.. or watever.. jus call me man! HAHAHAH

k getting sleepy nw. gonna crash soon n shower the smelly furball son of mine!

FINALLY legal!!!
was surprised when i walked into my room after my friday bday celebration at zirca n saw 2 big bunches of pink helium balloons. ive got the bestest bf on this planet! n even my mum says he spoils me too much! LOL i told bf i want balloons for my bday n he realli outdone himself! i nt onli got 2 bunches but i even got a big round singing balloon!!! it sings happy bday to me!! OMG FUN SHIT! best bday prezzie eveeerrr!

friday 8th-9th oct
so friday was krrraaaazzzyyyy! met xavier n munirah in town around 5ish.. n they got me krispy kreme donuts back frm the kl trip!! i was MAD HAPPY!! then bf came down to meet us.. n off we headed to cuscaden for some pre-drinks. isk, nigel, yanrui n alwyn came by n off we headed to zirca!

twin n claire met us thr n i was so happy to finally meet the both of them again!! like last yr me n twin celebrated our bday thr too so it was realli significant for both of us! n the bouncers all wished me happy bday n was like "wah FINALLY 18!!" LOL they are MAD CUTE! n darren came along too!!

so we partied till 3ish.. 2 belvedere bottles, 1 champagne, 10 jaggerbomb shots, 2 blowjob shots, 1 waterfall. yea the amt of alcohol we drank was NUTS! n im so happy everyone enjoyed themselves even though some didnt noe each other but alcohol brings everyone together! oh n twin n darren met for 2hrs n they were like bffs by the middle of the nite!! SO CUTE!

saturday 9th-10th oct
lazy day wif bf, jiejie n nick at home. had lunch n dinz at home. jus trying to rest the crazy nite away. then i dropped him home at 9ish n i left for attica to meet my sexy kerry baby for their costume anniversary party. mad crazy party when i had free flow of drinks frm the event n the guys. i sat at the couch eating popcorn! HAHA i left earlier cuz i got tired n went to meet bf. n im glad everything is ok(:

baby all i noe is tt I LOVE U SO MUCH! n i cant thank u enough for my bestest 18th bday eveerrr! i cant imagine my bday wifout u. u jus made everything perfect. n although u onli got me balloons for my bday... they made me soooooo happy! u hav no idea hw much i love the balloons u got me! u saw hw my face lighted up when i saw them. jus like a lil girl on xmas opening her 1st prezzie. i love u baby. thxs for being the bestest bf any girl can hav in this world. n im glad we always talk things out n make everything even better than it was. baby ur the greatest n i love u! oh n our macs breaky((:

overall.. BEST BDAY EVEERR! like 1000000000 times better than last yr!! i guess the company jus makes everything different! thxs for everyone who came by to celebrate my 18th wif me!! bf, twin, darren, claire, xavier, isk, munirah, nigel, yanrui, alwyn, monica, mitchell, luke, the zirca bouncers: kenneth, lester, misuzu n basically everyone else!!

*will upload the rest of the pics later!* for nw i shall sleep n wake up tmr n register for my DRIVING!! WHOOOOO =D

ladies niteeeeeee

so last nite was an epic crazy nite! ladies nite wif my baby kerry jus like good old times(: n elissa dropped by for a bit for a few drinks. so frm zirca we went to le noir n got treated drinks.. attica's bar whr we got 1 jug of redbull vodka n cranberry vodka.. inside to attica's vip whr we got more drinks n the male models were pouring vodka orange.. upstairs to attica's vip for AGAIN more drinks! n gosh i drank till i pee-ed non stop!! but BEST NITE EVER since a looooonnngggg time! realli like good old times whr me n kerry jus went clubbing together but will bump into people we noe or rather SHE noes n party n drink like mad(: then back to zirca whr we sat n stoned thr... rebel to see the crowd but was like ewww. then we cabbed to bf's place whr we went jalan kayu for prata then he sent us home! (: n my baby tried to drive sean's car but failed!! so im nt the worse driver eveer! HAHAHAHA

though my baby was upset last nite... we ultimately had an awesome nite towards the end(: oh was at zirca be4 our crazy nite began n its so sweet hw all the bouncers rmb my bday is coming!! they all went "ur bday is it!!! finally legal ritteee!" when they saw me! HAHHAA misuzu even wants to hav a "cutting fake id" ceremony for me on friday when i go down! they are sooo cute! n omg i almost fell asleep at attica's vip again last nite!! last yr i slept at attica's bar.. last nite ALMOST did too! omg wats wif me n sleeping at attica!!? must be their drinks n crazy music which make me sleepyyyy

but kinda hate the crowd at zirca nw. alot of weird ones. sigghhh but i love the people thr! attica was fun nevertheless n the people thr are uber nice too! maybe i should make tt my 2nd fav place since kerry practically migrated thr already!

we are gonna make it a point to ladies nite every once a mth nw! jus the both of us like old times since i rarely see her nw n i miss her soooo much!

no pics since we all didnt bring our cams but good memories were made in my brain!!

off to sleep again. meeting best for my bday dinz later! WHOOOO =D

its 3.35am.. im back to the good old days whr i drown myself wif tw dramas n read the english subtitles if they hav or if they dun.. i will jus roughly make out wat the hell the plot is abt. but its always the same old same old boy meets girl.. they fall in love.. but cant be together.. force to break up.. cry cry cry.. but get back together in the end. yea im a sucker for such shows! well its nice to be in fairytale land once in a while aint i rite girlies?

it was a nice monday i had today. bf being the sweetest kept me company the whole day cuz i hate being alone at home. but he having a recent craze on W.OW. (yea its like dejavu all over again but this time its a diff n better person! HA) brought his lappy over n played for 6hrs!!? i dun get guys n their games but trust me when he 1st started i was whinging n whinning so much i got angry n crazy at him for making me come over his hse n watch him play his stupid game. but somehw today i overcame the crazy angry self n occasionally sat on his lap n watched him play. i fell asleep on my bed for abt an hr or so n he being he sweetest would come in n kiss my cheek. n this furball son of mine too wants the share of the love.. so he happily jumped on my bed n sniffed n licked my cheek. it was a great monday being surrounded by my 2 boys i love so much. we would chase the furball around the hse.. disturb him.. give him tummy rubs.. flip him around... bestest moments are always the simpliest n most blissful(:

then it got me thinking hw lucky i am to hav my bf wif me all the time. its been 9mths n the bestest 9mths of my life! realli my bestest r/s ever out of my 6yrs of dating or watever u wanna call it. to think i actually thot i lovED those dudes in my past life. but dun get me wrong.. ive nv regretted them n in fact im still veri close frens wif ALMOST all of them. occasionally i get random calls frm 1 of them asking hw im doing n if i wanna join them at clubs. to me frenship after a break up is so important. unless i state otherwise. HAAAAAA

k off to continue watching my drama.. then shall call my computer game zombie bf n make sure he sleeps!!!

its a curse to know too much sometimes...

(edit)
i read my old blogs, browsed old pics... n ive seen wat grown n progress i made in my life. esp eversince i came back last yr to nw.. the changes ive made is esp apparent to those whos been thr for me since then till nw. 1 person is def my twin! though we dun need to talk everyday.. we always nv run out of things to catch up on when we do meet up! n each time i see her she always tells me hw proud she is of me for the drastic change since last yr till nw. it amazes her wat 1 person can do to affect n impact my life so much tt ive changed. she recently had a her fair share of life changing moments too. n i truely feel tt thrs a turning point in everyones life. its jus a matter of time till it hits u. either by a person or an event which can change ur thinking n personality. i used to be seen at clubs every wk.. sometimes even 3 times a wk... getting intoxicated n crazy. abnormal sleeping n eating habits. nw im thankful i got my life back on track. i noe wat i wanna be doing in my future.. n who i want in my future. nt jus in terms of marriage life but also those whos supported me through everyday. i cannot thank my bros n babes for always picking me up when i fall. nw ive got sean who is the permanent "life picker" of my life which i will nv trade or give up for anything else in this world. simply put it.. im thankful for everything tt has happened over a short period of 1yr cuz it made me see things differently.. forced me to grow up n treasure people n life better. but more important thankful for my frens, family n bf who always tell me to nv give up n keep on gg. all the emotional n physical support i needed to get me through everything. i love yall so much...

happy birthday to my mummy dearest!!

sudden craving for the yusheng my mummy makes after seeing this pic!! OMG OMG! n i was so skinny then during chinese new yr plss.. nw im jus a big fat huffalump! PUI

had a nice long fone call wif my mummy jus then(: said all i wanted to say so i shant write anything else here n its private too! i love u mummy.. so so much n i cant wait to see u next wk n go for our spa day!! =D

deadly sinz

1. pretty balloons
2. iPhone 4
3. bkk trip
4. perth trip
5. hk/taiwan trip
6. cakes/cupcakes
7. pretty make-up
8. wedges/clogs/flats
9. bikini
10. moet n chandon
11. shots of jagger bombs
12. feather
13. zoukout tics! (omg freakin cant wait!!)
14. cinnamon rolls
15. churros
16. popcorn machine
17. krispy kreme donuts! (which my bros are gonna buy back for me frm kl!! whoooo)

k mind blank.. im trying to make a list of wat i want/need. but i cant come up wif anything!! like yesterday when bf n i went to town trying to pick my bday prezzie.. nth seemed to appeal to me! i would look at it but then stare at it longer n go.. NAAHHH! even juicy couture my fav sinful brand doesnt make me go OMAAGGAWWDD anymore! is it becuz im getting older n pickier?

k at least i managed to churn out 17 points but even so majority are food? LOL kkeerrraazzyy! n even if i wrote bikini/shoes i dun even noe wat design n wat not. sigghh im such a picky shopper these days!! which i guess its good since at least 70% of my clothes are nt worn n rotting in my closet n i save $ too!

realli realli stoked for wed nite wif my babygirl((: n fri nite too! cuz my cutie face boy has something up his lil sleeve n my bros are in on the plan too. hmmmz... mastermind bf wat are u up to huh!!

Plans plans plans...

sat 2nd oct: party stuff shopping wif bf(:
sun 3rd oct: laze at home sunday wif the furball son since ive abandoned him the whole of saturday!

mon 4th oct: MUMSIE's BDAY!! stay home day to rest wif bf(:
tues 5th oct: facial
wed 6th oct: colour hair... 6pm: mani+pedi.. 8pm: dinz n ladies nite wif kerry baby!! like FINALLY!!
thurs 7th oct: bake day... 7pm: meet best for dinz!
fri 8th oct: dinz wif bf... cuscaden for pre drinks wif my bros.. zirca wif everyone else!
sat 9th oct: register for my BTT!! (: gonna be taking manual btw! dinz wif idk who... azzura/play wif bf, darren n crew
sun 10th oct: REST DAY

OMG STOKED FOR NEXT WK!! =D and and mumsie is coming back on the 13th!!

people who noe me n wanna join me at zirca.. PLS COME!! =D esp people i havnt seen in a while!!!

okay byeeee... shall go to bed cuz my furball son is already passed out on the floor! these few nites hes been sleeping soooo late cuz of his mother who refuse to sleep till like 6! =D

happy 9th my poopoo boy!!! (:

realli cant wait for my bday next wk... n ur bday 2 weeks after mine!!!! oh n our combine bday celebration!!! partying wif our frens n jus enjoying ur company! its gonna be our 1st bdays we spent together so ima make urs EXTRA SPECIAL!! got so many crazy things planned for u!! n i realli cant wait for u to see them! n baby we have many many many many thrillion yrs of bdays to spent together!!

my heart may be small.. but my love for u is VERI BIG!! =D i love u baby!

thursday sept 31st

-met up wif ethel twin in town for a nice chillout session! OMG I MISS HER LIKE CRAZZZYYY!

-n i realli cant wait for my bday next wk cuz shes nt gonna work on fri n celebrate my bday wif me!! =D

-our chillout session kinda got interrupted though.. but nevetheless we still had soooo much fun!

-home i went to change... xavier came to pick me up

-bottle tree park wif xavier, isk, aylwyn, marcus n his gf for dinz

-wanted to prawn thr but it was dam small.. so off to bishan we went!! when sarah came to join us too!

-prawn prawn... like we got 4 prawns onli after 3hrs!!! LOL SAD MUCH! FAIL PRAWNERS!

-nigel came during the last hr.. drank beer n chilled out talking nonsense

-drove down to pick nicole up then prata house for supper! more nonsense talk

-isk drove me home!

great great chill nite wif my bros(((:

k will upload blog again when im back. gg over to bf's hse wif the furball son!