jumbled up emotions...

yesterday i met up with christine. so we gossiped... heart to heart.. caught up n all. it was good fun(: but there were moments i felt like shit. i had sooo much hatred for him** for wat he did after. finally someone noes n understands y im like this nw. y im so angry n cannot let it go. tt im nt the onli 1 at fault. wat i cant stand abt guys is tt they love to tell onli 1 side of the story... n its ALWAYS the girl's fault. but they always seem to forget to examine themselves!! this is absurb!! but reality check girls.. they are boys who are sometimes so fking immature n stupid. us girls cant expect much from these creatures can we?!

im back to square 1 again.... its a fact tt im onli happy on the weekends. maybe cause im surrounded by happy babies n also i get to see u. weekends are when i come alive. when im truely happy n realli having the time of my life. but from mon to fri... sorri im jus a dead soul.

my fone has been surprisingly dam quiet the whole day today. 1st time in ages. kinda saddening but i wanna disappear from the world. so i guess tts good?

i think i realli got an illness- illness of staring at my fone too often waiting n waiting. loser much!!? yess i agree...

in need of ice blast neeooowww!! sigghhh :(

im too overly concern over him yes? i think so. im trying so hard to pull myself away... but no i cant. u noe i love fridays n saturdays when im there. idk he jus makes feel... happy? hmmm... idk its jus a warm gentle harmless hug... but to me it brightens up my day wait i mean nite. n yes we are JUST frens. but hes 1 fren tt is able to make me smile... his lil actions make my heart skip a beat. the lil harmless fun they always poke at me... always make me laugh n u noe wad? i enjoy the company of my "brothers". fun-loving(: yeaaa tt always cheers me up. in need of their stupidness nw. so to go down nw or nt?

to those who said "omg shar has exchanged alot!"(in a bad tone) well im here to say... fk you you n you*!!! hell yeah i hav changed!! i had enough of all this backstabbing n crap happening behind my back. yes ive changed.. but do u noe the actual reasons? no rite!?? so shut the fk up n leave my alone!!

anywhos.. angst, sadness n depression aside... stoked for friday nite! yea yea FRIDAY!!! retail therapy later(thursday) then comes friday!!! wheeehaaa =D

this is a very weird post. thxs for wasting your time to read this. lols.

saturday 7th nov-sunday 8th nov
town.zirca.rebel
pic spammmmm!!! skool is killing me... tummy rumbling. HUNGRY!! town-ing for lunch break to eat chippys n collect stuffsss

hate waking up.hate waking up.hate waking up.
wanna sleep forever.wanna sleep forever.wanna sleep forever.
mia.mia.mia
wanna disappear from the world.wanna disappear from the world.wanna disappear from THIS world

friday @ orchard hotel.town.BQ.zirca/rebel
k im over all this fked up drama. i seem to always get into this mode where i love to bastard guys who bastard me. i should realli stop being a bitch. lets jus hope his maturity level is on the same level as mine. i had enough! im done!! its jus me n my girls nw!! boys are so stupid sometimes. its so unlike him* since hes 4yrs older than me. bt watever... he should apologise to me 1st for even posting tt on fb 1st rite? gentleman? i doubt it. bt i shouldnt harp on it anymore. bt im at fault too cause of wat i posted on saturday nite. its an ultimate bitchslap on the face. bt yeaa.. if ur reading this.. fine im sorri. if ur nt.. too bad. yes im being an arse nw. bt u started all this. if u n u* didnt post such a thing on fb.. i wouldnt hav been a bitch abt it too. n fyi.. im on both of ur fbs plssss. bt i guess time can be reversed. so lets jus nt harp on this. im letting it go though my pride n ego is in the way.

i hate making enemies.. so pls dun turn into 1 of mine. u kept denying to everyone tt we nv had a thing. ok fine watever. i dun give a shit bt at least respect me? wat kind of guy is this yo? to be honest... i intended to play u bt it bit me back at my butt. nv regretted watever of my actions cause each setback.. i learned from it. this time, nt onli did i learn bt i gained(: so im okay. if u wanna continue being such a fked up immature ass.. go ahead. bt if u hav learnt to grow up, then maybe u should apologise to me again cause afterall u started this. or maybe i should be the bigger one n text u n apologise 1st? hmm see hw on my mood.

n then i realised the power of cyberspace: facebook.

on a happier note: whos gg for nightclass on friday nite at zirca???!!! I AM I AM!! =D gt to see my fav bouncerboys n party hardcore wif my babies!!! wheeehaaa (((: STOKED times a MILLIONNNN!!!

nite nite!! long day tmr(: its gonna be a happy day!!

[edited be4 i get scolding again by kingsolo!!]

need tickets for the biggest n baddest party of the yr!!!!???? 16th nov at ZIRCA!!! yes yes the club ive been raving abt!!! nt onli are there 7djs are realli HOT ASS people.. be installed for a nite of awesome fun tt u will nv forget!! yes a nite where girl n guys gt to drool and go crazy over hot people n it isnt a crime!!!! u noe hw much I LOVE ZIRCA wif a capital L!! so dun miss out this opportunity to party at the BEST n most GLAM club eveerrrrr!!!! its a once in a life time chance as they rarely hav mixedage events there!!! contact me at yukimi_11@hotmail.com for tickets!! =D or if u hav me on fb.. yea check out the details cause kingsolo hav been spamming my wall!!!

infinity n BEYOOONNDDDD!

friday 6th nov-saturday 7th nov
-after skool me n shanice headed to orchard hotel for some thingy... it turned out fun fun fun(: even better cause we gt to hav fun n yet gt payed!! wheehaaa
-so we went to cine n met hansa, cindy, munkie, mikki, shermin.. stone stone.. emmeline came down soon after
-me, shanice, emmeline, cindy, edwin, lendl n rod went to boat quey.. towerrrrrr
-then the girls n i headed down to zirca. bt this time i didnt go out bt stayed at the door talking to my bouncerboys n girls!! like fking fun onli!! lols.. all the stupid rubbish they can think of. my goodness!!!

*pics when i gt them from shanice baby!!*

saturday 7th nov-sunday 8th nov
-modelling interview.. stone stone till karz called n we chilled for a while. hardcore bitching session yo!! HAHA i likkeeeyyy...
-went to meet shanice n co(weiguang, yicong, marvin, dew n some chick) at cine. stone stone again.. camwhore to entertain ourselves.
-met up wif ning n her frens... blasted paramore n cruised down orchard in a turbo car. like fun fun cheapthrills!! LOLS
-zirca wif them n a whole lot... yes alot of fun as usual!!!! though my usual party babies didnt party wif me.. my new party crew is such an awesome fun too!!!
-the usuals wif my bouncerboys n girls. heeehawww x) stupid purposely kept flashing their bloody bright torchlights blinding me. i saw stars for a while. A-nnoying bt they are such an awesome bunch!!! ((:
(ps.. i rarely swear bt this is important!!) hi u mothafuker!! i fucking hate and detest u!! so stop being so fucking up urself n think i still like u. cause pls i fucking dun. ur such a major turn off u make me wanna puke n its so irkish. n even if i do see u at the clubs.. i fucking dun even wanna see ur fucking face. so u can dun worry. i wont need to look for u or find u anymore since afterall zirca is my 2nd home nw n i go there more often than u now. bt though i must say this was a blessing in disguise knowing u. cause without u i wouldnt hav even gotten into zirca n met so many awesome people there n nw almost every of the bouncers over at zirca noe me. so thxs!! bt i dun need to or want to see ur face.. thxs alot!

yepss veri angsty last nite.. bt after bitching n being at the door wif my bouncerboys making me laugh n purposely irritating me... it made my day a whole lot better!!!

k skool tmr.. more pics from my last nite soon!

im just a girl living in this normal world... with average girl issues!!! (mr gummybear was my bestfren yesterday in class)

my fats are accumulating n idk y i cant seem to stop eating. i eat 3 meals a day. yes finally like a normal human. last time i could last without eating for 2 days. nw.. every 2hrs im searching for food. yes im gaining weight.. TELL ME ABT IT!! omggg. bt then again... no one seems to believe ive gained. k i REALLI HAV I SWEAR! plus ive gt a modelling interview on sat!!? WTF KILL ME

weight issues aside... here comes the boy problems..

everyone reckons i need to tell him asap... n good news i hav decided to stop procrastinating n tell him next week(: k sometimes i wonder if he reads my blog. hmmm... anywhos... H says its sexy for girls to make the 1st move. S thinks its nt sexy bt, qouted exact words "its the fucken 2009 n i like it!" HAHA! bt then theres D who slapped reality in my face n told me im jus 1 of the many girls who like him. tts true too. k watever.. ive decided to go find some balls n tell him!! LOLs

nw comes to work

so last sat i earned $120 helping my cousin wif some childrens' carnival thingy. tts where i met 4 nus guys who are soooooo funni n young at heart. gt msged by 1 of them asking me to go down n help them wif some games thingy at orchard hotel tmr!! yeps here comes another $60 for 2 1/2hrs onli!!! n in aircon!! BESSTTTT

paps is being anal abt the whole swine flu coming back n saying i shouldnt be out too much. hmmm so dun go skool yes? HAHA! anyways.. SATURDAY IS COMING PEOPLE!! wheehaaa =D TIESTO wif my party boys!!! n i miss my bouncerboys too so at least i get to see them on sat(: i cant wait till my bouncerboys teach me hw to play poker. POKER NITE YO!!!

k enough rants... puppy n kitty are currently running around my room. project runway time!!

hello there... ive got a secret to tell you*. ive fallen head over heels for you and im currently missing you rite now...