You* gotta show me love~ esp in this wet, cold n depressing weather :(
I'm fking missing u

Falling sick.. Its the weather's fault n nt my late nites..

I've got better things to deal wif than lil shits like this to get me down.

Something inspiring: you ought to be happy in this life time.. U onli get 1 chance be4 u die sooner or later. *thumbs up* totally agree!

I think I'm gonna faint on my journey home.. Too sick.

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k a recap on my last weekend

friday 13th

-skool as usual.. which bored the shits out of me n i smiled so widely when it striked 5pm!! i officially come alive u see!!

-rushed home, changed n all... headed down to town where kerry baby came to pick me up n off we headed to cq!!

-karz was there waiting for us with ahem* went to delivery dinner for lester (yes im dam nice) then off we 3 went... eve came after a while

-so kah wee was around cq... so he joined us soon after tt. then came the rest of the guys... cons, des n johnny.

-Zirca for uniform partaayyyeeee!! =D n it was fun fun fun!! though half the time we were at the bar cause the 4 guys were crazy drinkers. my gawwdd... nevertheless Zirca nites always end awesomely(((:

-oh n i got irritated by my bouncerboys wif their usual stupid nonsenses n their high demand for sweets TSK!

-mac breaky wif kah wee, cons, des, johnny n eve!! yumyum(: then it was a squishy ride back home(((:

saturday 14th nov

Cherie baby's 16th!!!

-woke up late thxs to my nite be4... headed down to fish n co n i walked in wif balloons in my hand. im glad tt made her day((:

-town town wif the whole crew... (im too lazy to recall back who exactly was there) oh we started watching the apec cars drive by. cheapthrills!!

-nite fell... around like 9plus? i left for Zirca.

-the usuals when im there... talk talk to my bouncerboys/girls n this time their nonsense was worse!! OMG

-anywhos... jessica n the indos came.. jollin was there too. i was mostly at Rebel this nite cause they arent realli Zirca people.

-i stoned outside Rebel door till like 4ish? then kah wee came over from Phuture to get me(((:

-we decided to explore woodlands n we landed up at admiralty park. LOL like funnaayyyeee!

-def fun cruising down n blasting rnb songs in his car =D

sunday 15th nov

-i got woken up at 11.30am to go for lunch wif the fam. lunch ended up quite traumatising. gawwdd i dun even wanna go there

-hospital to visit ah ma n i made an amazing discovery!! my fking flat mushroom nose!!? i got it from her -.- fml

-home n i rested for a bit till kah wee came to get me.

-caught paranormal activity at vivo n yes people i survived it!!! though we both thot it was fking stupid n totally lame

-took a random drive into sentosa n we crossed the bridge to the southest dunno wat shit of continental asia n sat by the rocks

-suddenly, we heard keys dropping into some hole near the water. SHIT it was kah wee's car keys. omggg so we stared at each other in shock for 1min n started panicking. mind u... we were sitting on the rocks n the stupid sea is jus beneath our feet!!

-but we being smart took a stick n tried hooking it up but couldnt. in the end he reached his hand n got it!! omg!! EPIC or WADDD!!???

yep i had an awesome weekend as usual!! k im still having a "hangover" from last week plsss! i need my sleep. gonna email my essay n off i go to bed. so wats my this week plans? well i doubt im gg down Zirca this week cause im honestly dam drained. next week hari raya!!! OMG gonna Zirca wif my skool mates!! ETHELTWIN!! STOKED times a million!!! =D

k fine i admit... i miss you like crazzyyyy!!! (if he reads this his head would prolly explode!! POOF) lols... n im starting to miss my bouncerboys!! wif all their stupid nonsense n demand for sweets everytime im there!! it always "sharmaine i want sweet!! GO BUY!" idiot... but cute n nice idiots!! (:

hey yall!! ive got long hair again =D

pics up soon!!!

so almost most of singapore is at the m party at zirca. yeps im home!!! (: n they are motha fking strict today!!! from wat i heard.. many people got bounced. wheee i likeeeyyyy =D

dropped by for a while jus to see the crowd wif 50% of the intention to go in. but!!!! crowd fking turned me off to daa maxxxx!!! went to see my bouncerboys n babies be4 kahwee came down to pick me up n off we went on our nite adventure to random parks ending up wif me getting bitten by insects as usual!!

oh i FINALLY got my mixed cd from dj marcus cause i bumped into him there jus nw(: awesommmeeeee shitz to da max i tell u!!! major withdrawal syndrome times a millionnn!!!!

k skool tmr... this space will be filled wif fri n sat's pics cause its IT tmr n obviously im gonna be bored to death!!

goodbyeeeeeee!!! panda me is gonna sleep!

saturday 14th nov...
my baby cherie's bday!!! n she was so happy cause i walked in fish n co wif balloons in my hand((: i love u sooooo much baby!! we hav gone through quite a bit together n im thankful for having u wif me throughout everything. though we dun meet up so often as we should... we nv hav awkward moments at all. i missed u soooooooo much due to ur os n my sudden return back!! but baby im always here for u alrightyyy!! i love u like FK!!!

more pics soon... ive been a veri nocternal animal!! (: n random drives n pitstops around singapore!! fking fun onli(((: ima happy girl neeoowww! though my life IS dramatic!! k good nite. bringing lappy to skool tmr cause ive been deprived for 2 days already!!!! i miss u lappy!! :( will blog n upload pics(:

Am blogging via rylan BB in skool(:

Topic today: motivation.. I'm sooooo unmotivated to pay attention.
Kahwee n I are gg to watch 'paranormal activity' on sunday! Like I'm fking scared plssss! Gonna find some balls in 2days to watch it. I warned him of my traumas I will face in the movie theatre!! Lols!
My 1st horror movie yo!! Yes I'm a wuss n I'm proud of this! (:
Its a fking friday yo!!! PUMPED!! Nightclass wif my party babies n I get to see my fav bouncerboys(:

Yesterday me n etheltwin went on a shopping spree. K I did. Our nite was veri random but cheapthrills!! :D "sexayyeee ayee!" Heeehawww x)

K dam random post cuz I'm fking bored. My LnD lecturer loves to talk abt facebook! She makes me laugh. Hah!

Okay BYE!

jumbled up emotions...

yesterday i met up with christine. so we gossiped... heart to heart.. caught up n all. it was good fun(: but there were moments i felt like shit. i had sooo much hatred for him** for wat he did after. finally someone noes n understands y im like this nw. y im so angry n cannot let it go. tt im nt the onli 1 at fault. wat i cant stand abt guys is tt they love to tell onli 1 side of the story... n its ALWAYS the girl's fault. but they always seem to forget to examine themselves!! this is absurb!! but reality check girls.. they are boys who are sometimes so fking immature n stupid. us girls cant expect much from these creatures can we?!

im back to square 1 again.... its a fact tt im onli happy on the weekends. maybe cause im surrounded by happy babies n also i get to see u. weekends are when i come alive. when im truely happy n realli having the time of my life. but from mon to fri... sorri im jus a dead soul.

my fone has been surprisingly dam quiet the whole day today. 1st time in ages. kinda saddening but i wanna disappear from the world. so i guess tts good?

i think i realli got an illness- illness of staring at my fone too often waiting n waiting. loser much!!? yess i agree...

in need of ice blast neeooowww!! sigghhh :(

im too overly concern over him yes? i think so. im trying so hard to pull myself away... but no i cant. u noe i love fridays n saturdays when im there. idk he jus makes feel... happy? hmmm... idk its jus a warm gentle harmless hug... but to me it brightens up my day wait i mean nite. n yes we are JUST frens. but hes 1 fren tt is able to make me smile... his lil actions make my heart skip a beat. the lil harmless fun they always poke at me... always make me laugh n u noe wad? i enjoy the company of my "brothers". fun-loving(: yeaaa tt always cheers me up. in need of their stupidness nw. so to go down nw or nt?

to those who said "omg shar has exchanged alot!"(in a bad tone) well im here to say... fk you you n you*!!! hell yeah i hav changed!! i had enough of all this backstabbing n crap happening behind my back. yes ive changed.. but do u noe the actual reasons? no rite!?? so shut the fk up n leave my alone!!

anywhos.. angst, sadness n depression aside... stoked for friday nite! yea yea FRIDAY!!! retail therapy later(thursday) then comes friday!!! wheeehaaa =D

this is a very weird post. thxs for wasting your time to read this. lols.

saturday 7th nov-sunday 8th nov
town.zirca.rebel
pic spammmmm!!! skool is killing me... tummy rumbling. HUNGRY!! town-ing for lunch break to eat chippys n collect stuffsss

hate waking up.hate waking up.hate waking up.
wanna sleep forever.wanna sleep forever.wanna sleep forever.
mia.mia.mia
wanna disappear from the world.wanna disappear from the world.wanna disappear from THIS world